"Yours is a world of remembering and mine is a world of forgetting."
Holland “Dutch” Harpool, 85, and his wife Patricia “Pat” Green live in Overland Park, KS. Dutch has Alzheimer’s Disease, and sat down with Dementia Care Specialist Lora Swartzendruber to share his thoughts on living with memory loss.
How many years have you had Alzheimer’s Disease?
Six years ago it was suspected. Two years ago after that it was confirmed so that would be 4 years ago.
So you’ve been living with it for about 6 years?
Yes. And it’s gradually gotten worse; I guess it’s like leprosy it just gradually takes over. It’s very frustrating. My anger is much more explosive than it used to be. I’m more easily frustrated. I’m constantly frustrated by not being able to retain the gist of conversation, or to think of a word or to think of a name or to think of a lot of things.
Is that something that you’ve realized about yourself or is that something that someone like your wife has told you?
Partially. Both. Also the repetition of questions gives me a strong clue and my inability to stay focused at times. If you were to ask me to go upstairs and bring something down and I would go upstairs and I would see something lying on my desk and I would say “oh yeah, I meant to do this”…it’s hard to stay focused and I’ll go blank in the middle of a sentence and also during the day I find that I decline; my ability to focus declines in the morning when I wake up first I’m pretty groggy, but I can get past that I’m sharp. I can think, I can analyze, I can start the day, but then the longer I go into the day, I sit at my desk and think which one of those was I going to do? And then I don’t do any of it, it’s very lackadaisical.
This was interesting, a woman who was my production assistant for years, sent me a book [Deeper into the Soul: Beyond Dementia and Alzheimer’s Toward Forgetfulness Care by Nader Robert Shabahangi, PhD and Bogna Szymkiewicz, Ph] when she found out I have Alzheimer’s and I was looking through it today and it says “we forget many things that other people feel and know”. People who have AD forget that other people are hard of hearing or need glasses or that people who are walking on crotches or are crippled- we forget things as unusual as that.
Why does that stick out to you?
Because I forget a lot of things about people that I know, problems they’ve had, places they’ve lived, and sometimes I’ll say, “Where did you live before you came here?” “Well, I told you”, they’ll say. I’ll say, “Oh, yes!”
How does that feel when you forget something important like that about a person?
It’s embarrassing, but at the same time, I accept why I don’t know. Here’s another thought from the book: “We forget many things that people who don’t have AD feel are worth remembering and people with AD forget them, like birthdays.” Well, birthdays aren’t too big of an example. (Dutch laughs.) It’s like we move into a parallel world, where the realities are totally different and we can’t really recognize some of the other realities. Like, for example, my wife wills say, “Get the pen.” And I’ll say, “Pen? Pen? What’s a pen?” That hasn’t happened yet, but that’s an example of what’s coming.
Do you worry about that happening?
No. It’ll happen sooner or later and she’ll have to get used to it.
Is it about preparing?
Yes. It’s more about preparing. Actually, it’s just about accepting that things are going to change for me; that I’m going to be somebody totally different from who I’ve been.
If I had to describe your relationship to this disease, I would use the word empowerment. Do you think that fits?
I think so. Yes. The disease has empowerments.
Well, and you’ve used empowerment to face the disease.
Yes, that’s true. There’s nothing I can hide from. There’s nothing I can run away from so I’m just making the best of it that I can.
I respect that.
This book speaks of consensus reality and the reality of people with AD. People with AD can’t always discern or define what they are seeing or thinking and they can’t express to people what they are thinking or seeing or what is happening to them because they don’t have words for it. It’s like you’ve moved into a different country.
I have found this book although written for caregivers very useful. I can say, okay that’s where I am now; that’s what’s happening. We with AD past a certain point especially, are trying to understand a world that others urge us to recall and we can’t because to our knowledge we never experienced it.
Those are poignant thoughts.
Yes, they are. When I can look at things objectively it helps me to know what’s going on. “Yours is a world of remembering and mine is a world of forgetting.” That’s a wonderful sentence from the book for anybody who’s going through this difficulty finding and using words and understanding. Some words just don’t feel familiar to me at all.
I have difficulty following directions because I can no longer remember where things are, but I can remember, I’ve found, symbols. Pam, my wife, was going to go with me to a panel I was serving on, she said, “I’ll go with you”. We turn off the interstate on Broadway and then we go to 20th street and I thought “Oh, 20th street there’s that thing on the corner there”.
There’s a landmark.
Yes, a landmark. And then I thought,” Okay we go to such & such, and we go around the Y there and then I will turn left, but I won’t go all the way up the hill; I’ll turn on this street here and there’s a big white brick building there outside.”
Finding landmarks is another way of coping with AD.
Yes, exactly. Exactly. Confusing the past and present is becoming more and more one of my problems. I call my son to say, “Well, we just got back from Salina, KS”. And he’ll say, “Yeah, Dad, you called me yesterday to tell me that”. And I say, “Oh”. That bothers me because your parents are people you don’t want to get weaknesses. But anyway, people with AD confuse the past and the present; that’s what happens to people like me.
Well, Dutch, you handle it with grace. You truly do.
Thank you. And Grace handles it with me. (laughs) See there’s humor again. Too serious and I try to shut it down.
Any final thoughts? Anything you’d want to tell someone reading this interview?
Find your way. Don’t try to make your way. Find your way. Discover what you can and can’t do. Discover what people can no longer expect of you and be able to tell them that.
Spoken like a poet.
(Dutch laughs) Thank you.
Please enjoy some of Dutch’s poetry and writing.
When I Was
By Holland Harpool
I bought my Self a bicycle and
felt the world turning beneath me.
I hoisted a kite on a string and
fished for the wind.
I tossed a pebble at a cloud and
bent a blade of grass.
I did all these things and more
and when I had, I placed them
in a red lacquered box
lined with silver silk.
until my hands had turned
more calendar pages than
there are leaves on the
world’s tallest tree.
And on a day when the rain’s
teardrops were caressing the
cheeks of my windows,
I took them out, one by one,
and learned how a lake feels
when its ripples are touched
My office window in springtime
by Holland Harpool
by Holland Harpool
At first I believed
you were only shy
and that in time
your love and mine
would be as alike
as moonlight seen
through one set
of eyes. But I
guess I forgot
that some people
prefer to look for
others choose to
look for faces and
others, such as I,
never see the
Behind my mask
by Holland Harpool
There is within us each
a street of emptiness
waiting for the footstep
sound of hope approaching,
There is an unseen veil
we wear to hide the
child face with its eyes of
caution that look for a
soft glow of acceptance,
There is a mirror of Self,
a posed portrait which we
hold before us to show the
world, and which we oh-so-
carefully hide behind.
But mirrors can be taken
down, and veils lifted, and
barricades moved and
Helpless Hope changed
to a Triumphal Now as we
let the light of our Me
reveal our Self, our My
Self that we have
hidden behind our mask.
The Boy Who Played Trumpet
By Holland Harpool
Many say that jazz is the only true American music, although there are some who will argue with that. But even those who disagree with the idea are aware that jazz, like the nation where it was born, has undergone many changes. Yet one thing about jazz has remained constant, and that one thing is the kind of people who play it.
For the most part, they are people who enjoy, really enjoy, working with other jazz musicians. In the creation of their blend of sounds, they are openly appreciative of what those others contribute. And, as you might suppose, this respect for sharing carries over into relationships with people whose hearts and minds are not quite in tune with their own. Sometimes this happens to an unfortunate degree.
I think of a young man I once knew who played trumpet, back in the time when jazz was a Big Band type of music. These bands always had a group of trumpet players, and the boy was good enough to play first-chair in the trumpet section and also take the solos given to that section. This was called “playing lead and go,” and he did so while still a teen-ager – a degree of musical success quite rare in those times for such a young person.
As often happens with young people, and with those not quite so young, this trumpet player was vulnerable to beauty other than music. The particular beauty of which I speak came into his life in the person of a young girl with hair more golden than his trumpet and eyes more blue than any blues song. She was from a family with greater success in the accumulation of money than his own. And, yes, her parents felt a jazz musician to be less than a perfect match for their daughter.
In truth, it must also be said that while she loved the boy, she too found his trumpet playing to be something of an embarrassment.
It so happened, as time went by, that his love for the girl became greater than his love for the music. The golden trumpet which had been the center of the circle of his life was replaced by a golden ring that encircled his finger. But this happened only after the girl’s father had arranged an office job for the boy in a company owned by a friend.
As years passed, the trumpet case lay unopened on a closet shelf gathering dust.
At the same time, with the help of his wife’s guidance and encouragement, the young man achieved quite an acceptable level of success in her world. She helped him choose clothing more appropriate to their kind of life, helped him learn to play golf and tennis, helped him in the selection of the right kind and color of car, helped him gain membership in a certain country club, helped him in so many ways.
Which is why her family and friends could never understand the reason he phoned her one evening to say he wasn’t coming home any more. And why the only thing he had apparently taken away with him was the trumpet, which had gone so long unplayed.
Opinion was divided as to whether the reason for his ingratitude lay in faulty genes, or the jazz environment in which she had found him.
Perhaps it was neither, or both. Or perhaps it was simply that they gave too much of themselves to each other. And gifts given as barter cease to be gifts, becoming instead a price too high to pay in the long, long run.
Learning to Live with Alzheimer’s Disease
Today’s contributor, David Partridge, 72, was diagnosed with dementia several years ago. David grew up in New Hampshire. His father was a bobcat hunter and a licensed wilderness guide and his mother was a nurse. He and his siblings spent their childhood exploring the outdoors, before David joined the Navy at 18. After being discharged at 25, David returned to New Hampshire where his match-making mother threw a party and invited three single women; one would become his wife, Sandy Partridge. As a young couple, Sandy and David moved to Missouri, near where David’s sister lived. Before retiring he worked as a maintenance supervisor in plumbing, heating, and refrigeration.
A few years ago, David and Sandy moved to Mulberry, Kansas. Their daughter is their neighbor and also assists the couple in navigating David’s early stage Alzheimer’s disease.
Kelly Jones, Heart of America Community Outreach Coordinator, interviewed David for the Early Stage blog. During the interview, David shared the struggles of accepting an Alzheimer’s disease diagnosis, the frustrations of giving up his driver’s license due to memory loss symptoms, and learning to move from a life of independence to a life of interdependence.
What follows are David’s words as recorded by Kelly.
I wanted to go where it is warmer so I left New Hampshire as a young man. Now if I could be anywhere I’d be in New Hampshire, but Fulton, Missouri would be fine too. That’s where we lived before here. Three years ago, we decided to move closer to my daughter in Kansas. I left my church and I left my friends. I’m not big on making new friends so…sometimes I miss Fulton. I miss that life.
Sandy and I moved I guess because I got diagnosed with Alzheimer’s disease. The first time I got diagnosed was in Columbia, Missouri. They said that I had some kind of dementia and they called it Alzheimer’s disease. At the time, I thought they were just grasping at straws, you know. Then some time passed and I moved to Kansas. I went down and saw a psychiatrist in Fort Scott and he also diagnosed me as having Alzheimer disease. I don’t know if I believe it now. I really have a hard time accepting the fact, but when I don’t accept it, it just turns into an ongoing argument with Sandy, with my doctors, with myself. I know I forget things, but sometimes I wonder if it’s to the extent that I have to have a hard & fast diagnosis.
I remember, I went in and I took a test. They asked me to remember a few things from a half hour ago and then they had me draw pictures and a few other things. When I got done, I thought, “No problem I passed with flying colors.” And I had everything wrong. When the lady gave me the results, I was floored. I didn’t think there was a thing wrong with me. I could remember things. I did things. Matter of fact, I thought this visit to the psychiatrist in Fort Scott would open the door to get my [driver’s] license back, but it didn’t. I don’t know what happened? I guess I didn’t do things in a timely manner…I don’t know what it was but they confirmed my diagnosis was Alzheimer’s disease. Now since then, we’ve done a lot of talking about vascular dementia, but I guess it doesn’t matter; a rose by any other name is still a rose.
When I hear vascular dementia, I get this feeling, I don’t have an incurable disease- well, I guess I still do, but not Alzheimer’s disease. Not that. I’ve read books on Alzheimer’s disease and they scared the living crap out of me. I read one that was written by a guy who right up until he kind of lost it…so I don’t want to do it. I don’t want help. I’m scared I’ll do something stupid. I don’t know what I’ll do if I get that way.
I lost my drivers license because of the Alzheimer’s diagnosis and now Sandy drives me around. It’s one of the hardest things I’ve ever done in my life giving up my driver’s license. I didn’t want to do it at all. I just loved driving and doing things by myself. Before I could just go somewhere and now it’s at the whim of someone else. Some days this driving thing is very hard, I can’t tell you. I get very frustrated and I think it makes me worse.
Matter fact yesterday, a lady came here for some reason. She was somebody who was going to help with the house work through the Area Agency on Aging and I thought she was you when I saw her. I thought she was you from the Alzheimer’s Association and then for the rest of the day I had a hard time understanding what that was all about [the person cleaning from the Area Agency on Aging]. It’s like, sometimes, I have a hard time following what people are saying about whatever and I just don’t understand what they are trying to say. Since all this memory loss stuff, I have this thing about people talking about me. When two people talk and I’m there; I figure they’re talking about me. I just have this feeling that I’m misunderstood and people are talking about me behind my back and that’s frustrating.
I was in the hospital last month for my shoulder and I was having a hard time coming out of it, I don’t know if it was the memory loss or what, but I could hear them talking and all I could make out was nursing home, nursing home and I couldn’t talk to anyone. When I came out of it, I was scared and I kept asking are you going to send me to a nursing home, are you going to send me to a nursing home? And she said no we don’t have to. I don’t want to be, I just don’t want to…well, there are some people who go through this and they don’t have a clue what’s going on. That’s hard on the people who take care of you and for the person it’s happening to- it’s very confusing.
Is it helpful to hear that other people have said similar things to me? That I frequently hear that people with early stage Alzheimer’s sometimes have the feeling people are talking about them?
Do you really? Yes, it helps that I’m not the only one paranoid, I suppose. That it’s normal? My daughter always plays game with me. She’ll say, Well, we told you that. It kind of knocks me out of it… Boy, I used to have in-depth conversations. I don’t anymore. I can’t. I couldn’t possibly [follow] anything really in-depth, I don’t think.
Isn’t this an in-depth conversation right now?
Yeah, but that’s because you understand me and my memory…and you don’t understand me because I’m your husband, you understand me because you know I have dementia and I think that kind of cuts through a lot of the problems.
So it helps if the person having the conversation understands the memory loss?
Yes, but really it helps that they are not emotionally involved. You know sometimes, it’s like- [when Sandy says] I told you about it and you know I did! And somewhere inside the person that’s telling you that, they have to believe it and on the other hand, me- I’m just thinking I’m getting verbally attacked.
You mentioned yesterday was a rough day?
Yep, it was. Started out kind of bad and just kept on going.
What does a good day look like?
A good day looks like? Well, I have a good time when I go outside and work in the shed and I feel pretty good about the whole thing. I get out as much as I can. I don’t think Alzheimer’s is going to go away. The way they talk about it it’s always going to be there. If I had something wrong with me and I could cure it or take care of it, I could take that but, this is never ending. I still have a hard time accepting it. I go along with it because it makes it better for everyone concerned, but you have to be true to yourself you know? I think probably some people with Alzheimer’s disease to have the same thing happen to them. The hardest thing about it is when you’re first diagnosed. I still hold out hope that someone will come along and test me and say you know there isn’t anything wrong with you? I know that’s not going to happen- everyone’s got a preconceived idea anyway. I want you to test me and see if I have Alzheimer’s disease- right away they probably think, oh he’s probably got AD. If I could just drive & didn’t have to ask Sandy.
Does your driving situation cause stress for you and Sandy?
I’ll tell you what, we’re driving down the road and I say, Let’s stop here. And she says, I’m not going to stop here and she keeps going. Or when we’re driving around town, I’ll say- Listen, why don’t you drop me off at the Home Depot and I’ll just walk around? She’ll say, No, you have to stay with me. So it gets to be this kind of back and forth thing. Like, my church is important to me so I’ll say, Let’s go to church. And she’ll say, Not now… So I’m at the point where I’m doing what she wants me to do and I don’t think she understands it, but if she did what I wanted to do once in a while I’d be a lot happier. Driving someone around is too emotionally involved.
I told [Amy, his Alzheimer’s Association Dementia Care Specialist], You know how it feels? I don’t think I have Alzheimer’s disease. And she said, Okay. What do you think you have? And I said, I don’t know. If you call it by some other name maybe I’ll feel better about it, you know. Vascular dementia lets me off the hook somehow? I don’t have an incurable disease- well, I guess I still do, but not Alzheimer’s disease. I’ve read books on Alzheimer’s disease and they scared the living crap out of me. I read one that was written by a guy who [wrote] right up until he kinda lost it so I don’t want to do it [Alzheimer’s]. I don’t want help. I’m scared I’ll do something stupid. I don’t know what I’ll do if I get that way.
Sounds like the dementia has caused some depression?
Yes. It really has. I keep thinking, I feel down about things and I can’t help it. I cannot stop. I know they say depression, everybody has it, but most everybody gets out of it. I keep going deeper and deeper and I don’t know where I was. I don’t think it’s because I did anything at all; I think that’s just the way it was. Oh, I was fully aware that I had been diagnosed. When they diagnosed me down in Fort Scott, I was mad at Sandy. I thought they were conspiring against me. It didn’t make any sense that they would, but I just thought- They were trying to conspire against me to make me something I don’t want to be.
When did you have enough insight to know they’re not conspiring against you, that something was wrong with your brain?
(Laughs) Well, I don’t know that there is! Sometimes you can look inside and say that’s the way it is and I’ve got to live this way. It takes the pressure off and then you don’t have to worry about it anymore. If I knew more people with dementia and I was sitting there talking to them, I might not be quite so worried because I’d think Well, they really get this. It’s been a long time, I’ve been at this. It’s not easy to understand unless you have it.
Do you feel like people only think about your dementia?
Yes. [They think], I have to protect him because he might walk into traffic or something, but that’s not so. I have enough insight to know not to do that stuff. I go out in the shed and work with my power tools, but I’m very careful about it. I make sure everything is just right. That’s just the way it is. Sometimes when I talk to people, I’m thinking- They’re talking to me like I have dementia again. Somehow it makes me feel left out or something. It’s like when they pick sides for grade school teams and the guy who’s left out, he’s in a lot of trouble. No one wants to play with him, like the guy who has Alzheimer’s disease…It’s not going to get better is it?
It’s true that the memory loss does not get better, David. That’s true, but it doesn’t mean when you have a down slide, like you did in December when you were recovering in the hospital that you can’t come back to where you are now.
Does it all wind up in the same place? I can’t see the future, right? I’m 72. How old are you?
I’m 38. What advice would you give me about the future?
Well, it would be: Trust in God and don’t let anybody talk you out of it. That’s powerful.
Do you still retain trust in God, David?
Yes, I do. Yes, I do. More so sometimes then others…God is just a little closer sometimes than others, I think. I can see the end there and can see that things progress along that way, you know? I’d like to be able to say, Oh to hell with it and not worry anymore. I do that with Sandy. I say, Boy oh boy, would you stop worrying about things? But when it comes to my own health, I can’t stop worrying about it and well, that’s just the way it is. I have to get some answers.
What advice do you have for other people with early stage memory loss?
Keep busy. Like, I write about my childhood, about my Dad, who was a bobcat hunter. He was an interesting guy. I like thinking about that, working on that. And [like I said] I work in my shed and I build birdhouses. That’s a good thing.
A Diagnosis of Alzheimer’s Disease
Gwen Richards; Alzheimer’s Disease Advocate and Blog Contributor
Gwen Richards; Alzheimer’s Disease Advocate and Blog Contributor
Our first contributor, Gwen Richards, was diagnosed with Early Onset Alzheimer’s Disease in November 2008 at the age of 54. Since receiving her diagnosis Gwen has been an active and valued Alzheimer’s Disease advocate on both the local and national level. She serves on the National Alzheimer’s Association Early Stage Advisory Group as well as the Missouri State Alzheimer’s Taskforce. Gwen lives with her husband in Kansas City, MO and has two adult daughters that live outside the metro area. Gwen and her daughters e-mail and/or talk on the phone every day. By doing so, they each know everyone is okay.
Recently, Kelly Jones, LMSW, Heart of America Community Outreach Coordinator, sat down with Gwen at her home in Kansas City, MO. During the visit, Gwen shared details of the moment she received the Early-Onset Alzheimer’s Disease diagnosis. What follows are Gwen’s words as recorded by Kelly:
I first went to my regular medical doctor with my concerns. He basically thought I was in need of more rest or something of that nature. Knowing that was not the case and having watched my mother and oldest brothers’ struggle and demise with the disease and their ultimate untimely deaths, I decided to contact one of my other siblings that had been diagnosed with the disease and asked for her doctor’s contact information. I then contacted him and made an appointment. On the day of my appointment, I left work and met my husband at the doctor’s office.
The doctor performed a mini exam where he flashed cards and asked me to memorize the images. A few minutes later he asked me to recite the images that I previously saw on the cards. I was unable to do so. According to the doctor, a person with my age and education should have performed much better on the test.
My husband and I were at the doctor’s appointment together. I remember the doctor asking me one of the memory-test questions; I can’t recall what it was, but it was something real simple, something I should have been able to answer and I absolutely did not know the answer to. At that point, I looked over to my husband and he had pulled his cap down over his face, like this. (Gwen mimes pulling a baseball hat down low, covering her eyes and half her face with her hand.) He understood right then that something was wrong and by the end of the visit, the doctor said “Alzheimer’s”. That may have been the moment [my husband] got it, but for me, the only thing the doctor’s test did was confirm what I already knew.
My mother had the disease and passed away. My oldest brother had the disease and passed away. So when Alzheimer’s disease came knocking on my door, I knew it was that monster. I understood the early signs; I currently have two other family members living with disease. They can be subtle and people don’t always see them or want to see it, but I knew. One big thing I first noticed: I was bringing work home because the noise in the office distracted me from completing [tasks]. That wasn’t normal for me.
On the day that I received my diagnosis, I remember I drove straight from the doctor’s office to work. I sat in my car in the parking lot and I read the piece of paper from the doctor that said “Alzheimer’s”. And that was it! I went inside the building of the company where I had worked for 25 years and told my boss, I have Alzheimer’s Disease and today is my last day. He was real good about it, real understanding. He said, Gwen, you do what you have to do to take care of yourself. He told me to go ahead and live and enjoy my life. I gathered some of my personal belongings and told a couple of co-workers that I was leaving. I miss work, but being home is better for me now. I’m comfortable here; no one is going to ask me for anything. It’s safe.
What was ahead was frightening, yet I knew enough to search out the Alzheimer’s Association just as I had when my mother was diagnosed. I felt that unlike the doctors, they could help me find purpose during the unexpected transition in my life.
I do worry about my husband. That’s what bothers me the most, how [Alzheimer’s] affects my family: my husband, my daughters, my grandchildren that I may never know. My daughters will have to go through what [my siblings] and I went through with Mama. I worry about my daughters and grandchildren getting Alzheimer’s.
I’m a person who struggles with Alzheimer’s disease every day.
How do you cope with the stress associated with disease?
Well, I attend an early stage support group at the Alzheimer’s Association and the people in that group, we support one another. Even outside of group sometimes; we’ll e-mail and check in on one another. And I write [about it] when I can. I’m a writer, like my daughter. We both love to write. Both girls and I e-mail almost every day, but we don’t talk about Alzheimer’s all the time- just communicating with them helps. I have on-line friends that also have Alzheimer’s disease. One of my online friends and I check on each other daily; we chat about our lives and how we’re coping. It helps and we understand each other even though we have never met and maybe never will.
What advice would you give a person who is experiencing early signs of memory loss?
Consult a doctor and make sure they listen to your concerns.
If the doctor dismisses your concerns, find another one; don’t waste your time.
Seek out the local Alzheimer’s Association chapter. They’ll provide directions and all the tools necessary to cope. I saw two doctors before I found one that believed me. In my case, I didn’t look and behave like the stereotype of a person with dementia so it was challenging getting a diagnosis. It’s important to connect with someone that will believe you. The other thing I would add, if you find out [you’re memory loss is dementia], it’s good to have a purpose as life changes. For me, I work at raising awareness, raising advocacy, but that can be frustrating at times. I want to be able to do more.
By Gwen Richards
A monster came to visit me
I can’t remember when
He barged right in and didn’t ask
As if he were my friend.
He resides somewhere within my brain
And scatters things around
When I go to retrieve my thoughts
They are nowhere to be found.
Memories of yesterday
Some scattered to and fro
Where are my thoughts from yesterday?
Oh God, I do not know!
The monster sprinkles bits of fear
Where fear did not reside
He makes me sometimes feel ashamed
He makes me want to hide.
In my home where I am safe
And sheltered from the world
Surrounded by familiar things
Protected and secure
No one to care or even know
What lurks within my brain
Yeah, a monster lives within me
My mind he’s trying to claim.
Welcome to the Alzheimer’s Association Heart of America Chapter Early Stage blog! Approximately monthly, we will invite an early stage advocate from our chapter to contribute to the blog. We create this blog to provide a venue for people in the early stage of memory loss to share stories of how they live meaningful, full lives while coping with Alzheimer’s Disease and related disorders. Our purpose is to:
- support and provide insight to individuals in the early stage of disease and their families and
- advocate for ending disease stigma, increasing early detection, expanding funding for research, and raising public awareness of memory loss.
We encourage readers to use our comment section to share your own insight, observations, and questions about Alzheimer’s disease and other dementias.
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